Just as I thought...

I made the scale cry. :-0 I've been avoiding the thing, can't avoid the fact I feel like crap though. So me and the scale are back on speaking terms... well if it ever stops crying. At least I'm not going to just avoid it anymore. I may however take up crying with it.

Today's eating is going well. I had toast with 1/2 oz of peanut butter on it... Tia, I'm eating your peanut butter thingies! :-0 Figured that way I would be less prone to add "extra". So my two slices of 9 grain bountiful baskets bread with my 1/2 oz peanut butter packet divided between the two has GOT to be better then my normal morning breakfast of two scrambled eggs with cheese and 2 slices of buttered toast. right? Maybe I should look into the factuality of that statement, instead of just assuming in my head. I will note, that I was perfectly happy with that for breakfast. Of course now I just keep thinking about food. Not even hungry, just want to eat it cause the possibility is out there. This is something I know I need to work on, eating when not hungry just because its there. Ahhhhh this is like AA, or what I assume AA would be like as I've never been there. confessions confessions confessions.

Oh yes, last night as I climbed into bed I remembered something else I need to work on. Going to bed at a decent hour. Yep, that definately needs some work. I hate getting into bed until I am so exhausted that I know I will have a chance of falling asleep. I need to find a way to be able to shut my mind off earlier. I think I will add melatonin to my shopping list.

sooooo.....

Long time, no type. just call me a slacker. It's all good I can handle it. Besides it's true so ehh, whats a person to do.

So, it is Sept 20, 2011 for at least another half hour, it is also the last day of the past of my life.... don't get your knickers in a knot (if you ever read this... TIA! ha, since your the only one who ever even contemplates reading this) I said past of my life, not rest of my life, or life period. Tomorrow, is the first day of the rest of my life. of course Tomorrows are ALWAYS the first days of the rest of your life, but I need to figure out my life. What am I doing to do with myself for the next 35 years? Will I live that long? I truly need to do something to get healthier... hell my blood pressure alone is enough to kill a person, not to mention the rest of the unhealthy issues I have going on.

So here's whats gonna happen, I need to own up to the fact that I need to change. I need to find a way to get some freaking willpower cause I don't have any! Not sure how I'm going to go about that yet. I need to hold myself accountable somehow. I'm going to start by confessing my transgressions here if I don't tow the line. My aim is to make a few small changes at a time and not completely beat myself up and then give up over falling of the wagon. When I say small... I mean small. I already know I have no willpower and I know that if I set my standards for myself to high I will fail, so I need to come up with a way to set reasonable goals. there might be a lot of stumbling going on for awhile, but hopefully there will be some progress.

Starting tomorrow, I am going to start laying off some of the bad things. My first aim is to just shoot for smaller meals and less "crap" and weaning myself from the fine lovely beverage Monster... mmmmm.... monster. I also aim to add 15 minutes of some sort of exercise a day. I will take the fat brown dog for a walk.. or ride the bike.. or play DDR! ahhhhh I used to love to play DDR. I will face the scale in the morning and go from there. I will try to make updates throughout the week and confess my transgressions... oh the optimism. That SHOULD have read "Celebrate my accomplishments", but I am just not feeling it yet. Come Monday or Maybe Tuesday since it IS Tuesday now, I will post a real update. and we'll see how it goes.

After I get this little bit of hell underway, my next thing is to figure out what I am going to do about needing a job for the next 35+ years. Doh!

On that note, I am outta here!

Todays News

my feet hurt and I haven't slept all night. that is all

Sooooo.... its 1:39 am and I'm bored

Go to sleep you say. Sorry can't. Well I could but tomorrow night starts my two week stint of working graveyards. I have always heard the first night is the worst, so I choose to make the first night be tonight whilst I am still at home. Then tomorrow night whilst I have to be being productive it won't be so bad. right? right! c'mon throw me a bone here and tell me I'm right darn you.

I have never worked graveyards before. I have stayed up all night but that was always for fun filled fantastical stuff. What I am going to be doing is definitely NOT going to be fun filled nor fantastical. I shall be stripping and waxing floors. oooooooh the excitement! not.

On a better subject, I went bowling. Have I mentioned that I am on a bowling league and suck at bowling? well both are true. I do have the prettiest darn bowling ball though. its swirly purple and silvery white and shiny! oooooh shiny. I am still getting used to the darn thing but when I don't totally suck I bowl better then normal with it. I do have those games that I can't seem to make the stupid thing do anything. but I am getting above my average on most games now. Todd has a bowling ball that is purple and smells like grapes. seriously grapes. Who in their right mind thought one day, "hey, why don't we make bowling balls smell like fruit" I mean seriously what the heck man, what were they thinking.

alright, 3 hours and 13 minutes til bed time. Off to be bored somewhere besides this blog

:-0 I missed a day!

get used to it! mwah ha ha

So yesterday I had to work and nothing at work went as planned but that is pretty much par for the course. Hopefully I will get the rest of the work done tomorrow that I was supposed to get done Saturday. then Tuesday night I do my first ever run of working graveyards. Now that could suck... Although, when you really think about it I have had the worst time sleeping so staying up til 5 in the morning might not be so hard after all. We shall find out.

On the way home yesterday I stopped at the mail at got our package from Amazon.com containing our Zumba CD's. *giggle* the mere thought of the fiasco that we shall call "doing Zumba" makes me break down in uncontrollable giggles. *snicker* To say I sucked at it is a huge understatement. I'm glad I was in my own home. I'm glad no one was watching. There is a chance it may get better. Or not. It was kind of fun though.

On another note. That damn bike, which I have for unknown reasons named Chester, is still kicking my trash. That little activity I have a tiny bit more faith in my ability to get better at. extremely tiny. hee hee hee

Alright, I'm off to do something... ok, really I'm off to go to bed. sweet dreams all

now it really is Friday!

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! oh but that means I have to go to work tomorrow! BOOOOOOOOOO

Today we went on a road trip to Provo to try and find Todd a exercise bike so he can rehab his knees. After looking at the "new" prices on the type he needs we started watching the KSL classifieds and found one that I'm thinking was being used as a coat rack for less then half the price. It looks pretty much brand new, one or two small smudges on it and now the thing needs to be blown up. I swear I thought I was going to have a heart attack after riding the stupid thing for only 10 minutes. That is soooooo soooooo sad. oh well, 10 minutes at a time is better then no minutes so we shall be working our way up. anyhow, it looks like this...
well mostly like this. its white not gray. Those handy little front wheels means it can be zipped from Tia's room where it sleeps to the living room where I have a heart attack and Todd teaches his knees to bend at least a little. Hopefully it will go better with time. We will see about that. Oooooh Zumba dvds should be here soon! that will be our next heart attack provoker. :-0 Til next time my loyal followers, Good Night and pleasant dreams.

IT'S FRIDAY!!!

Ok, in the real world its not Friday, but in my world it is Friday and I don't have to work tomorrow. Although I DO have to work the next day so does that make tomorrow Sunday? :-0 AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Poor Saturday! Where did Saturday go!!!

Not much happened today. work, some more work and oh yes some more work. I did put a lame bulletin board up at work. It seemed so much cooler in my brain... well actually the original idea seemed really cool. Couldn't figure out how to get it to work so then it turned into a lamer idea in my head which was lamer still in real life. Oh well.

Tomorrow we are going up north to see if we can buy Todd a exercise bike to continue rehabbing his knees. We've been watching the KSL ads and have a couple of leads on the kind he wants. so we will see if any of them pan out. that's about all in the lovely world of us. Hopefully as the days go on we will get more interesting. hopefully

Zumba...

Zumba Lady...

that is all.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

Bunco

Hmmm... is that how you spell it? regardless of how you spell it it was fun! Tia and I are in a Bunco group and we had our first get together tonight. It was great fun I tell ya. Although after awhile I was seeing spots.. spots everywhere! and now I have the freaking Zumba lady song stuck in my head... which curiously makes me really want to do Zumba. :-o Damn you byrd sisters

well that's all for now I shall leave you with...

Zumba... Zumba lady... mwah hahahahahaha

P.S. its 1/11/11 and I am writing right close to 11:11 oh wait if I wait for the right second.....

Definately a Monday

So nothing actually went right today, so obviously its Monday all right.

Not only did I have to deal with stupid whiny people at work, I am in the middle of inventory, then I decided to biff it on some ice in the parking lot and try and crack my head open on the asphalt. Little did that darned ice know, I have a very hard head. I didn't feel all that great for a few hours, but I'm pretty sure I'm gonna live. Which is good cause we don't have very good life insurance on me. Bowling was alright. started out HORRIBLE! first game I bowled 30 below my average.. ai yi yi. Picked up once my head quit pounding so much and bowled the last two games about 20 over my average so it all worked out. Not much else going on, tomorrow Tia and I are going to play Bunco or Bunko or however you spell it and hopefully I wont hurt myself anymore.

rubber rooms and padded suits are looking better and better all the time.

Til next time my peeps. peace out

Hello world

When I thought that this day couldn't be more lame then yesterday boy was I wrong! hee hee I felt like crap most of the day so didn't get a whole lot accomplished and then I fell asleep and got even less accomplished. Good thing tomorrow is always another day and all the things I didn't get done today will be more then happy to wait for me.

So til then
Peace out

PS with this post I have now blogged as much this year as last year. hahahahahaha

almost missed it!

I've been doing good. boring the daylights out of the invisible people who read this blog but doing good at keeping it up! We were even talking about blogs earlier and I thought to myself... "self, don't forget to blog" and I thought back to myself "I will later self get off my back already" and then I almost forgot. I just looked at the clock and was all.. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I have 23 minutes to blog or I missed the days opportunity to enrich the world around me. Ok, so that enriching part is pure bullcrapola but here we go anyhow. Can you believe blogger spelling thinger is telling me bullcrapola is not a word.. how dare it. but anyhow...

These are the days of our lives... Today:
Hmmmm... I woke up. I sat in the cold waiting for the veggie truck. I worked on cleaning the kitchen. It's sad when you have to "work" on it and not just "do" it. oh well. I did some laundry, I uh, went to the dump and ummmmm made dinner. Holy sheetrock I am lame. but seriously that's pretty much my day. This evening we had homemade pizza, then popcorn, then root beer floats during our Saturday Family movie night. Colt bailed and went to a friends to hang out and play video games. I can't imagine that being funner then our evening . we watched three movies the first was dorky, the second was... well not sure what it was. It was ummm.. I guess suspense or drama or crazy whacked out chick who wants to kill the fathers girlfriend show. yeah there we go. That's what it was. the third was a chick flick with a sad ending :-(

Yep, that's it. I am pretty sure tomorrow is going to just as, if not more exciting then today! wooooo can't wait.

Good night boys and girls

Tia's home for a few years...

So a few years back Tia was contemplating her future and decided 1) she wanted to be a pharmacist and 2) she was going to attend the University of Utah

I was good with all of the above and we went about our merry way making sure she was on track to get accepted into the U and we got information and we went on tours and all was on track for the U to be "the choice" until a few months ago. While attending a college fair we randomly went to the SUU presentation. I say we went because SUU is a valid choice of schools in Utah. Tia said something entirely different about "why" we should go to the presentation. I shall leave it up to her to tell what that reason was . So we went to the presentation and got into a lovely conversation about the fact that you could go to almost any University in the state and be able to apply to Pharmacy School, but there's a little known fact that SUU has a great program to actually help to get you accepted into Pharmacy School. Not to mention its about the same distance from home as the U, a much smaller town (which would make me feel A LOT better anyhow) and the costs are less, and the class sizes aren't so ginormous. We looked into the school more, I read A LOT, then we went on a campus tour where we ended up lucking into being able to visit with the Dean of Science. The campus has nothing on the U's but everything else about the SUU experience won us over. Ok, won Tia over. I was already rooting for SUU from all my research :-)

Tia ended up getting accepted into every university she applied to, including the University of Utah, but in the end she chose to start her post High School educational path at Southern Utah University. So in, what seems like, a few short months Tia will be moving to Cedar and becoming a Thunderbird to do her undergraduate studies before applying to Pharmacy School.
Which may be at the U, may be somewhere else. We have some time before that point.

Look two days in a row!

Boo and Yaa

Now I think I'll attempt sleep one more time.

Happy New Year!!

Ok, I'm a few days late. sue me.

I thought about making a post on New Years Day. You know one of those, what has happened in our family this year ones. But alas I didn't. Obviously! Pretty much what has happened this year is as follows:

Todd had surgery
Todd had surgery again
Todd had another surgery
Todd had still another surgery
Todd had one last surgery for the year.

Yep, that pretty much captures the year in a nutshell... Oh wait! there was another thing.

TIA PICKED A COLLEGE! YAY! and better still she picked the one I wanted her to pick. :-)
I will leave that for another post though.

So dear friends and neighbors... Ok, not really. This blog has no readers... hmmm
ok then:

Dear Me,
Here's to hoping the new year is a lot better then the old one! mwah ha ha ha well except that last college part. That was pretty cool :-)