Grrrrrr ...

I am sick of dreaming while I sleep. Is there a way to sleep without having dreams? I'm not much of a pill person but I'm thinking I might take one to quit having stupid dreams. especially the last while. I spent seemingly all last night (and many nights before) trying to find someone. Someone who in real life is dead and wanted nothing other then to pretend I didn't exist while still living. well they ignore me in my dreams too as I fruitlessly keep trying to find them to know why, only to have them keep not wanting to be found and just missing them. what the hell. I came to terms with it in my waking hours (not like there is anything I could do about it anyhow) but why the hell do I seem obsessed with finding out why in my sleep. Newsflash to subconscious self YOUR NEVER GOING TO KNOW, so get the hell over it!